Two Sides, One Choice

Secret War Journal[23 September 2010]

I shall be the blight in the day, light in the night.

I am enemy of friends, friend of their enemies.

I am the scourge of all living, harbinger of all death.

I am the king of the unworthy, commoners among nobles.

I am the blade of Tarrune, shield of Arun.

Just something that I came up with during my usual solitude walk. :)

Life may seem difficult now but there's always a silver lining in every dark cloud.

When every words hurts

Secret War Journal[22 September 2010]

Life is so great, they don't give me peace.
Guess, having this Journal is my only solitude, as I had discovered a mere 15 minutes ago.
Perhaps one day, this place would not be suitable for such things either.
Guess, that's just another reason to make this place more "Secret".

Have not decided whether I would change the URL yet. That depends on who is reading this.
Would tell Aaron of the new URL though. :)

When you cannot tell what's real and what's not, what else is left?

One does not cancel the other

Secret War Journal[20 September 2010]
Ah, I found a place in School to improve efficiency of studying, provided a condition is fulfilled. =)

Good to know that doing the other does not make me inefficient in doing the former (as I had thought)
It was simply because I had grown complacent and perhaps it's now a good time to address that. :)

Not sure I should talk about this... Hmm, maybe a good test for something. >=D

Anyway, today my class had PE and it's really rare to have the whole class play the same game and at the same time.

However, I feel that something is still amiss. Perhaps it is just me. Perhaps the wall that I made around me is still around. It won't be lowered ever because of my dark past. That's on the bright side, and of course we all know... :)

Because God have time and time taught me trust always find a way to hurt you the most...

P.S: I know what you did, Eugene. It doesn't take so much of even 3 minutes. (Or a brain, for that matter). Oh well, it doesn't really matter. If only you only you knew how complex it can be for the generation before us, you would realise that your move was a err... nevermind....

Lied for Simplicity

Secret War Journal[19 September 2010]
You asked if I was an atheist. I replied yes.

I am actually a Polytheist but few people use this term in Singapore.

I believe in God(s). I do, but my past and circumstances has left me to be in the same category as what Singaporeans call "Free-Thinkers". Being a free-thinker doesn't mean you don't believe in God. It's a very complicated term that's hard to explain.






So it turns out I still lie, despite my commitment not to. This situation was a stupid reason to lie but it was because of my laziness to explain and just wish certain things to be forgotten. Some past are meant to be past. I guess.


I remember my commitments, my promises, my vows, what I ask for is God's forgiveness.

Yin Yang

Secret War Journal[8 September 2010]

On the bright side of life,

I have friends for every occasion,

I have friends who are willing to go crazy and high with me,

I have friends who are willing to go serious together,

I have friends who are willing to go through the obstacles together,

I have friends who are willing to help me out in difficult times,

I have friends who are willing to hear me out when I'm down,

I have friends who are willing to take effort to cheer me up,

But that's only one side of the story...

On the dark side of life,

I may never will know who are my true friends,

I may have friends who will betray at the slightest turn,

I may have friends who will badmouth me at the slightest chance,

I may have friends who only pretend to be friendly but truly otherwise,

I may have friends who will sell me out for reasons unknown,

I may have friends who will give ill advice to guide my ruin,

I may have friends who can't wait to be rid of me,

But that's only one side of the story...

Whatever the outcome, thanks for being there...