Never give up

Secret War Journal[28 Jun 2024]

Shadow

Secret War Journal[1 April 2024]


Tell me that you hate me
Yeah, I heard it all before
There is a life here for the taking
Is it mine or is it yours?
All I am is what you make me
You're on both sides of the war
It's not the devil that you're facing
It's just your shadow on the floor

Nobody but me

Secret War Journal[18 July 2021]

Tried for weeks

nothing will losen the grip you hold

I’m learning your ways

oh you love keeping me on my toes

cuz theres no light

now there’s no sound

I guess I’ll howl alone

and you were light

now there’s no us

so who’ve we got to hold?

cuz there ain’t nobody, body

that’ll look at you all night

completely satisfied

and who won’t give the fight

nobody, baby

that will lay upon your chest

that’s giving you the best

no

ain’t nobody, body

that’ll look at you all night

completely satisfied

and who won’t give the fight

no body, baby

will lay upon your chest

that’s giving you the best

no

There ain’t nobody

we’re undone

both of us stubborn like a stone

taking a run

but something in me wants to crawl back home

cuz there’s no light

now there’s no sound

I guess I’ll howl alone

and you were light

now there’s no us

so who’ve we got to hold?

cuz there ain’t nobody, body

that’ll look at you all night

completely satisfied

and who won’t give the fight

nobody, baby

will lay upon your chest

that’s giving you the best

no

ain’t nobody, body

that’ll look at you all night

completely satisfied

and who won’t give the fight

nobody, baby

will lay upon your chest

that’s giving you the best

no

There ain’t nobody

We’re undone

We’re undone

cuz there ain’t nobody, body

that’ll look at you all night

completely satisfied

and who won’t give the fight

nobody, baby

will lay upon your chest

that’s giving you the best

no

ain’t nobody, body

that’ll look at you all night

completely satisfied

and who won’t give the fight

nobody, baby

will lay upon your chest

that’s giving you the best

no

There ain’t nobody

Never done

Secret War Journal[12 July 2021]

always do it on my own so I gotta get through it

and the only thing I know is to love what I’m doing

never give up never slow til I finally prove it

never listen to the No’s i just wanna keep moving

keep my head up when I act

head up that’s a fact

never looking back 

ima keep myself on track

keep my head up staying strong

always moving on

feel I don’t belong

tell my thoughts to move along

push myself to be the best

die with no regrets

live with every breath

see my message start to spread

and I had so many dreams

then you hit your teens

life ain’t really what it seems 

try to find out what it means

always do it on my own so I gotta get through it

and the only thing I know is to love what I’m doing

never give up never slow til I finally prove it

never listen to the No’s i just wanna keep moving

yea I put out all this art, its my only medicine yea

everything I do, im just being genuine 

I’m sick of being screwed, feel my own adrenaline

yea i do just what I do, and I hope you let me in let me in yea

I’m grateful 

oh yea

able

oh yea

I’m stable

oh yea

no label

oh yea

u know me

I have

only

a path

I’m lonely 

but damn

I’m going

to win

I don’t want no fake love

I want the real stuff

everybody listen up

cuz I’ll only say it once

I’m gon show you all the path

if you want it bad

I’m gon show you where it’s at 

yea how you can get it back

yea cuz I ain’t never done

I’ll be number one

working hella hard until I get just what I want

yea rise just like the sun

yea fatal like a gun

shooters gonna shoot and Im gon shoot until I’ve won

always do it on my own so I gotta get through it

and the only thing I know is to love what I’m doing

never give up never slow til I finally prove it

never listen to the No’s i just wanna keep moving

yea I put out all this art, its my only medicine yea

everything I do, im just being genuine 

I’m sick of being screwed, feel my own adrenaline

yea i do just what I do, and I hope you let me in let me in yea

I’m grateful 

oh yea

able

oh yea

I’m stable

oh yea

no label

oh yea

u know me

I have

only

a path

I’m lonely 

but damn

I’m going

to win

ないない

Secret War Journal[27 May 2021]

 

灰のない 深い 影ばかり
愛のない 答え ドールみたい
自分 不在 どこにもいない
ない じゃない
曖昧な愛 色のない愛
期待 以外 他人事みたい
お影様 どちら様
応え様々
何者でもないまま
何にもできないまま
生きるのは無駄ですか？
悪いことですか？
ここにいない いない いないのは
自分 自分
誰も見ない 見ない 見ないまま
掃き捨ててさようなら
嬉しくない 悲しくもない
透明な気分
足りない自分 合わす顔もない
（ない）ない（ない）
笑えないじゃない？
灰じゃない 遺愛としてもう一回
平穏 支配 期待できたい
いやいやな汚れでさえ
手回しはない
ここにいたい いたい いたいのも
自分 自分
味は苦い 苦い 苦いまま
当て所なくさよなら
帰らない 行く先もない
迷子な気分
間違えてない まだ分からない
（ない）ない（ない）
どうだっていいじゃない？…

Gravity Wall

Secret War Journal[2 March 2021]
 

Lyrics

[Verse 1]

Majiwaru jikan jou ni nai ruisen magaru kairaku
Hakisuteru ai do o te ni netami to tsunaideru
Utsuri ki ni shiteru hodo mienai soui
Kachikan no rensa o tomeru furii kidori no batsu

[Pre-Chorus]
Gravity-wall kuchidzuke o

[Chorus 1]
I'm screaming something to you
Whatever, something to me
Zureta kotae o doketa saki dake ga
I'm screaming something to you
Whatever, something to me
Karamatteru hadashi demo kakeru
Now I don't know what I really want
I still don't know how to escape from this beautiful trap
Don't know what I really want
I still don't know how to escape from this dangerous trap

[Verse 2]
Muda na risouzou egaki hankyou sagashi kaidoku
Totte tsukeru seikouhou ni kazaru mirai ga taoreru
Hi ni ataraseru hodo kogeta seigi
Kiri nai sontoku hazuseba te ni toreta koe

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you're craving for my blood

[Chorus 2]
I'm screaming something to you
Whatever, something to me
But everybody can't hear. Pay attention to me!
I'm screaming something to you
Whatever, something to me
Everybody can't hear. Pay attention to me!
Now I don't know what I really want
I still don't know how to escape from this beautiful trap
Don't know what I really want
I still don't know how to escape from this dangerous trap

[Chorus 1]
I'm screaming something to you
Whatever, something to me
Zureta kotae o doketa saki dake ga
I'm screaming something to you
Whatever, something to me
Karamatteru hadashi demo kakeru
Now I don't know what I really want
I still don't know how to escape from this beautiful trap
Don't know what I really want
I still don't know how to escape from this dangerous trap

[Verse 3]
Break your stereo days
Sora hodoita taiyou to hane no shiro ga
Brave invisible world
Nakushita irotachi o terasu
Break your stereo days
Whatever they say, you'll never stop to believe in yourself
Brave invisible world
You know that it's true
You can find the new way

---

I'm screaming something to you but everybody can't hear.

Fly me to the Moon

Secret War Journal[3rd December 2020]

Lyrics

How much further till I walk to the moon?
How many cold nights do I need to spend?
How many times do I need to say goodbye?
My eyes will be completely dried up
It will continue even after a thousand years
That's how I thought
But it completely filled this void
What is this feeling?

A new wind will bring Spring
Ah, where the wind blows is where I should return to
It won't change
How hot the summer is, or gold fish
When the fireworks disappear, let's count the stars all night
Trees fading their colors, fingers that are ice cold, fires of the days we spent together
So that they won't disappear in the piling snow, let's leave some marks behind

A piece of paper
I reached for the door
Only one "yes", or a tiny rock
Something small like that can change your world

It's simple
A "Good morning" everyday
See the blue ocean like a movie in the summer
Learning where you are from
We layers the moments, like a film
We reshoot over and over
Rather than fading or adding colors, the scenery where you are is more vibrant
It's ok if it was an instinct or sudden
I just thought like that, without any hesitations
I was asked if I can be trusted
That's a simple question
I've been thinking about it, whenever
That voice follows me around
And pushing me forward
I see, this feeling is love

It's simple
A "Good morning" everyday
See the blue ocean like a movie in the summer
Learning where you are far
We layers the moments, like a film
We reshoot over and over
Rather than fading or adding colors, the scenery where you are is more vibrant

I hope the two fingers we reached over a fire of a thousand years ago
Are still shining after a thousand years later over there
"I don't mind believing", I think I heard that
I looked up at the round moon
It was always shining down the world
I see, this feeling is love

Source: https://www.animesonglyrics.com/tonikaku-kawaii/koi-no-uta

Be Kind

Secret War Journal[22 July 2020]

Wanna believe, wanna believe
That you don't have a bad bone in your body
But the bruises on your ego make you go wild, wild, wild, yeah
Wanna believe, wanna believe
That even when you're stone cold, you're sorry
Tell me why you gotta be so out of your mind, yeah
I know you're chokin' on your fears
Already told you I'm right here
I will stay by your side every night
I don't know why you hide from the one
And close your eyes to the one
Mess up and lie to the one that you love
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah
I know you need, I know you need
The upper hand even when we aren't fighting
'Cause in the past, you had to prepare every time, yeah
Don't wanna leave, don't wanna leave
But if you're gonna fight then do it for me
I know you're built to love, but broken now, so just try, yeah
I know you're chokin' on your fears
Already told you, I'm right here
I will stay by your side every night
I don't know why you hide from the one
And close your eyes to the one
Mess up and lie to the one that you love
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah
I know it's hard for you, but it's not fair
Going sick in the head tryna get you there
And I know it's hard for you, but it's not fair
It's not fair
I don't know why you hide from the one
And close your eyes to the one
Mess up and lie to the one that you love
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah
Ah
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah

If this is the last time

Secret War Journal[25 June 2020]

Hey mom, I know
We're getting old
And the lines on our hands have changed
But you still look at me the same
Hey Mom, guess what?
You're really tough
And I know you did all you could
Just to make sure my life was good
Sorry for the fights and the tone of my voice
Sorry for the nights when I made the wrong choice
Life is flying by and it's hitting me now
I hope it's not but
If this is the last time please come close
I love you with all my heart, you know
I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye
If this is the last time
Then let's do the things we always do
Like go to the mall and buy some shoes
I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye
If this is the last time
Hey dad, what's up?
Miss you so much
Yeah, the shade of your hair is changed
But I look up to you the same
Taught me how to fish, taught me how to ride a bike
Taught me how to love, how to treat a woman right
Life is flying by and it's hitting me now
I hope it's not but
If this is the last time please come close
I love you with all my heart, you know
I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye
If this is the last time
Then let's do the things we always do
Like go for a drive or watch the news
I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye
If this is the last time
Hey you, sit back
Don't go so fast
If this is the last time please come close
I love you with all my heart, you know
I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye
If this is the last time
So let's do the things we always do
Or maybe we try something brand new
I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye
If this is the last time
If this is the last time
If this is the last time
Oh
If this is the last time
If this is the last time
If this is the last time
Oh
If this is the last time

Just walk on water

Secret War Journal[11 November 2019]

---

“Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith.” - Steve Jobs

The Ocean

Secret War Journal[24 March 2018]
Be the guiding light for someone :)

---

“People who are unable to motivate themselves must be content with
mediocrity no matter how impressive their other talents.” - Andrew Carnegie

VOiD

Secret War Journal[9 March 2018]
Let the Serenity of the Void envelop you.

泡沫

Secret War Journal[31 July 2017]

陽光下的泡沫　是彩色的
就像被騙的我　是幸福的
追究什麼對錯　你的謊言　基於你還愛我

美麗的泡沫　雖然一剎花火
你所有承諾　雖然都太脆弱
但愛像泡沫　如果能夠看破　有什麼難過

早該知道泡沫　一觸就破
就像已傷的心　不勝折磨
也不是誰的錯　謊言再多　基於你還愛我

美麗的泡沫　雖然一剎花火
你所有承諾　雖然都太脆弱
愛本是泡沫　如果能夠看破　有什麼難過
再美的花朵　盛開過就凋落
再亮眼的星　一閃過就墮落
愛本是泡沫　如果能夠看破　有什麼難過

為什麼難過　有什麼難過　為什麼難過

全都是泡沫　只一剎的花火
你所有承諾　全部都太脆弱
而你的輪廓　怪我沒有看破　才如此難過
相愛的把握　要如何再搜索
相擁著寂寞　難道就不寂寞
愛本是泡沫　怪我沒有看破　才如此難過

在雨下的泡沫　一觸就破
當初熾熱的心　早已沉沒
說什麼你愛我　如果騙我　我寧願你沉默

One more light

Secret War Journal[26 July 2017]


Should've stayed, were there signs, I ignored?
Can I help you, not to hurt, anymore?
We saw brilliance, when the world, was asleep
There are things that we can have, but can't keep

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

The reminders, pull the floor from your feet
In the kitchen, one more chair than you need, oh
And you're angry, and you should be, it's not fair
Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it, isn't there

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We're quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do
Well I do

---

Thank you for being our companion during our dark days.

We'll run where lights won't chase us

Secret War Journal[15 June 2017]


Breathing you in when I want you out
Finding our truth in a hope of doubt
Lying inside our quiet drama
Wearing your heart like a stolen dream
Opening skies with your broken keys
No one can blind us any longer
We'll run where lights won't chase us
Hide where love can save us
I will never let you go
We'll run where lights won't chase us
Hide where love can save us
I will never let you go
Wearing your heart like a stolen dream
Opening skies with your broken keys
No one can blind us any longer
We'll run where lights won't chase us
Hide where love can save us
I will never let you go
We'll run where lights won't chase us
Hide where love can save us
I will never let you go
We'll run
We'll run
We'll run

We put the good in the good in the good life

Secret War Journal[12 June 2017]


Raise up a cup up for all my day ones
Two middle fingers for the haters
Life's only getting greater
Straight up from nothing we go
Higher than the highest skyscraper
No Little League, we major
The proof is in the paper
We put the good in the good in the good life
We put the good in the good in the good life
We put the bad in the past, now we alright (Eazy)
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy (Kehlani, I got you)
Ayy, yeah
And it's a feelin' that I can't explain
How you make it and your team still stay the same
Stay down from the jump and they never change
Man, this a moment I could never trade, yeah
I told my moms not to stress no more
Go hit the Bentley store and no credit card debts no more (Love you mom)
I bought the crib and it's in escrow now
So you don't ever have to worry about how you gon' pay rent no more
I put my team in position, now they makin' a killin'
Stackin' blue faces straight to the ceilin'
Out in Vegas I'm with 'em
Orderin' bottles of that Ace when they send 'em
'Til there ain't enough space up on the table to fit 'em
Go ahead and
Raise up a cup up for all my day ones
Two middle fingers for the haters
Life's only getting greater
Straight up from nothing we go
Higher than the highest skyscraper
No Little League, we major
The proof is in the paper
We put the good in the good in the good life (The good life)
We put the good in the good in the good life (I said the good life)
We put the bad in the past, now we alright (We alright)
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
Ayy, yeah
Pour some Clicquot in a glass, have a toast to success
No lookin' back from here, no more bein' broke and distressed
I put my heart into this game like I opened my chest
We only pray for more M's while you hope for the best
We make these plays, man I'm finessin' these checks
Time's up for everybody, I'm collectin' on debts
And I swear this champagne just tastes better on jets
I'm just out here bein' great, man, this as real as it gets
I put my team in position, now they makin' a killin'
Stackin' blue faces straight to the ceilin'
Out in Vegas I'm with 'em
Orderin' bottles of that Ace when they send 'em
'Til there ain't enough space up on the table to fit 'em
Go ahead and
Raise up a cup up for all my day ones
Two middle fingers for the haters
Life's only getting greater
Straight up from nothing we go
Higher than the highest skyscraper
No Little League, we major (Yeah)
The proof is in the paper (You know)
We put the good in the good in the good life (The good life)
We put the good in the good in the good life (I said the good life)
We put the bad in the past, now we alright (We alright)
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
Ayy
Damn right, from the bottom we rise
So high, now we cover sky lights
We're building an empire
We owe it all to each other
Just look at us right now, destined
We're so good right now, legend
Here's to you and I
Raise 'em to the sky
We put the good in the good in the good life
We put the good in the good in the good life
We put the bad in the past, now we alright
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
We put the good in the good in the good life (The good life)
We put the good in the good in the good life (I said the good life)
We put the bad in the past, now we alright (We alright)
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
Ayy
The good life

Next of Kin

Secret War Journal[27 May 2017]



Our mother always used to sing our praises from the rooftops
Although we caused her trouble, you and I were thick as thieves
You fought your demons and deserved to have succeeded further
But you slipped and fell my little Kabaneri girl

Your will was stronger than any of all my powers
Your voice of reason, like a soothing stream beside my bed
When I was terrified you'd talk to me for hours
I wanna hear your voice now

What would you say?
Move on, cause I'm gone
Now you're talking to a shadow
Look there! People so scared
Hit your mark with every last arrow
Be here, ready your spear
The path you have got to follow
Is more deadly each year
Their sins were paid in blood so go!
Woh oo oh oo oo oo oh
The sins of all our fathers
Woh oo oh oo oo oo oh
We've paid enough in battle
Woh oo oh oo oo oo oh
This is your chance for freedom!
Lots of love your next of kin

You always had my back when everything around turned scary
Words never said to you ah damn my over bloated pride!
You were the best of all the best that any world could show me
Now we fight a war, forever you will be inside

You showed me strength that I had never seen before
It lit fire under me; I seek to quote the words you said
When I was terrified you'd talk to me for hours
I listen to your voice now

What would you say?
Move on, cause I'm gone
Now you're talking to a shadow
Look there! People so scared
Hit your mark with every last arrow
Be here, ready your spear
The path you've got to follow
Is more deadly each year

What would you say?
Move on, cause I'm gone
Now you're talking to a shadow
Look there! People so scared
Hit your mark with every last arrow
Be here, ready your spear
The path you have got to follow
Is more deadly each year
Their sins were paid in blood so go!
Woh oo oh oo oo oo oh
The sins of all our fathers
Woh oo oh oo oo oo oh
We've paid enough in battle
Woh oo oh oo oo oo oh
This is your chance for freedom!
Lots of love, your next of kin

STYX HELIX

Secret War Journal[20 September 2016]

Stitches

Secret War Journal[16 December 2015]

Be Somebody

Secret War Journal[22 November 2015]

I’m just the boy inside the man, not exactly who you think I am
Trying to trace my steps back here again so many times
I’m just a speck inside your hand, you came and made me who I am
I remember where it all began so clearly

I feel a million miles away, still you connect me in your way
And you create in me something I would’ve never seen

When I could only see the floor, you made my window a door
So when they say they don’t believe, I hope that they see you in me

After all the lights go down, I’m just the words you are the sound
A strange type of chemistry, how you’ve become a part of me
And when I sit alone at night, your thoughts burn through me like a fire
You’re the only one who knows who I really am.

We all wanna be somebody, we just need a taste of who we are.
We all wanna be somebody, we’re willing to go but not that far.

And we’re all see through, just like glass
And we can shatter just as fast
That light’s been burned out for a while,
I still see it every time I pass
It was lost in the corners of my mind,
Behind a box of reasons why
I never doubted it was there,
It just took a little time to find and even when...

I feel a million miles away, still you connect me in your way
And you create in me something I would’ve never seen

When I could only see the floor, you made my window a door
So when they say they don’t believe I hope that they see you in me

After all the lights go down, I’m just the words you are the sound
A strange type of chemistry, how you’ve become a part of me
And when I sit alone at night, your thoughts burn through me like a fire
You’re the only one who knows who I really am

We all wanna be somebody, we just need a taste of who we are
We all wanna be somebody, we’re willing to go but not that far
We all wanna be somebody, we just need a taste of who we are
We all wanna be somebody, we’re willing to go but not that far

I’m just the boy inside the man, not exactly who you think I am
Trying to trace my steps back here again so many times

When I could only see the floor, you made my window a door
So when they say they don’t believe, I hope that they see you in me