Total Recall 2012

Sunday, August 26, 2012
Secret War Journal[25 August 2012]
As humans, we all change. Some change more, some change less. Yet all change. As others progress while you are stuck in place, the feeling experienced is of sadness. The compulsion to move forward is overwhelming me, I need to take a step forward. A step towards a better future...


Review:
I understand that this 2012 film is a remake of the 1990 film. However, I did not have the fortune of watching the original film.

For this movie, I can safely label the film as an action-packed thriller. The action was indeed non-stop, a plus for movie-goers who wish for some action. Despite that, I should caution that the action is not exactly very thrilling. It felt bland, of which I am not very sure why. Perhaps, it bears resemblance to the Minority report hence making me unable to feel the adrenaline rush during the action scenes. Nevertheless, it is certainly nice to watch constant action while at the same time explaining the plot.

This movie also reminds me of closed-room mystery games where the main character forgot who he was.

The ending could had been better crafted, in my opinion. The ending presented left much to desired, as though an important component of the plot was unexplained.

As many would had guessed, it had been a long time since I last watched movie. For this particular outing, Jie Sheng was the one who planned it. Along with him are Bao Lin, Cynthia and Siew Yan.

Except for the guys, they are all studying in University now. Time sure pass very pass, huh?

Today was also the day I ate 90% of the sweet popcorns of the Jumpo-sized box, no thanks to Jie Sheng was got sick of the sweet popcorns all of sudden and switched to potato chips, leaving me alone to clear the remaining popcorns! Hahas! I think I have enough popcorns for the entire year already, sorry popcorn makers! :P

One hilarious event that happened today was also how Cynthia, who brought $50 to help us buy movie tickets and popcorns, went home with $51. One of the rare moments when one actually made money by a wide margin when helping people buy stuff. XD
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After the movie, we had a chat at the rooftop. I am not sure about the rest but the scene there gave me release.

Spending so much time away from civilian life, I am finally able to do something I sort of wanted. Maybe one day, I would get to chat with close friends on a roof, on a hill, overlooking vast plains. For now, overlooking short buildings will do. Strangely enough, it gave me a sort of peace that I so rarely receive.


Tempted as I was to shout out loud then, I knew it was the right place to do it. One day, I should visit the hills to shout my lungs out. Perhaps then...
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Before heading home, we met up with Cynthia's sister, Sharon, who was having desserts in the shopping mall too.

Then I am home, a foreign thing nowadays...

"For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: 'If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?' And whenever the answer has been 'No' for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something." - Steve Jobs

Wandering in the Wild

Monday, August 20, 2012
Secret War Journal[13 - 17 August 2012]

Phew, I am back from yet another field camp!

From the field camps, I am very sure that I am not a person suited for extreme outdoor activities. After every field camp, I always emerge out of it feeling as though some of part of me died in there. The feeling is definitely not good, in my opinion.

Yet, from the horrible exercise, I travelled in the forest. Armed with a map and a compass, I navigated in the forest and managed to not get lost in there. Of which, I am glad. Hahas. Navigating in the wilds is much different from our simple navigation in urban areas, say mainland Singapore. The severe lack of prominent landmarks in the vicinity really makes navigation tough as it takes a lot more effort to find out where you are if you ever find out you took a wrong turn.

I also learnt other military drills there but that is not for you to know. ;)
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Nevertheless, I am glad that my section mates were around during the field camp to help me survive through it. Yes, we were all tired and could not wait to leave the place but we still persevered and help each other out. In such tough times, I think it stand for something.
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With the closure of this exercise, perhaps the most challenging activity in the Foundation Term of my cadet life has passed. However, there are still a few high-risk activities remaining. Until I clear them, I cannot declare that I have survived the Foundation Term. :O
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"A creative man is motivated by the desire to achieve, not by the desire to beat others." - Ayn Rand

Brave Blade: Crossing Field, Paradigm

Sunday, August 19, 2012
Secret War Journal[19 August 2012]
Before I start on this post, let me wish every muslim selamat Hari Raya Puasa! :)

I always feel that it takes great strength to fast for an entire month. :O

Back to the post, I am sorry I am posting quite a number of songs here instead of archiving my memories. I really need more time to pen them all down though I would still continue to try despite my lack of time. (I am sacrificing my sleep time for this because these posts are important to me. :)

First up, a song by LiSA, Crossing Field!



My cowardly past that I admitted
Not knowing what's going on, my frightened
past self reflects the reality now

The many skies that are painted here surely
will disturb this ephemeral heart

In my dream I soared
No matter the anxieties my body bears, I'll shake them off
The small sleeping feelings I'll stretch them out
I realized I'm weak and that if you being there

will give me strength in this dark world
This heart that's seeing a long dream, yeah, will last forever

(I wanna always be with you
I'll give you everything I have)

I was looking for the guiding light
If I could touch it, I would remember everything
I'll take the irreplaceable and precious present time

Closing your eyes to the world you know
Is always warm yet painful

Indeed the connecting wishes overlap
The visible hesitation began to move
I want to protect you. The wounds you bear
drifted into a deep sleep

The promise was kept unchanged
Bonds are yeah, what two people clearly believe in

Until my voice reaches you, I'll keep calling your name
I want to feel more the miracle I encountered

In my dream I soared
No matter the anxieties my body bears, I'll shake them off
The small sleeping feelings I'll stretch them out
I realized I'm weak and that if you being there

will give me strength in this dark world
This heart that's seeing a long dream, yeah, will last forever

(I wanna always stay with you
I wanna hold you tight right now
I swear I will walk with you
I'll give you everything I have)

Next up, a song about blades.


Your fall, my fall

Sunday, August 5, 2012
Secret War Journal[5 August 2012]
Times like this, I wonder. Would I catch another person's fall?


In that same manner, would someone catch me if I fall?


The path ahead is bright but it takes a leap of faith to move on.

We all tend to cuddle up at a spot, content with the current status quo. Afraid of change, afraid of the uncertain future.

Sometimes, by standing up and walking ahead bravely, there might be a bright future ahead of us.


Yet, we cannot deny that it is much easier when there is someone accompanying us. Being there for us to walk forward the path together.


I want to be there for you, just as you would for me.

Sadly, I know it is not possible now. I would find you...

"All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name." - Andre Breton

Smile

Saturday, August 4, 2012
Secret War Journal[4 August 2012]
Found this song from my buddy in the army who was playing this song. :)
Enjoy!


Requiem

Secret War Journal[4 August 2012]
I wonder
Will you one day be able to tell me?
Hopefully, with a gentle voice
My soul is a sparkling star
Of drowning tears

A future of nothing bad sadness that finally comes
I through it, forever

I wonder,
Will I ever be able to let go of that hand?
Hopefully with a gentle smile
My soul trembles and shines
My soul is a sparkling star
Of spilling tears

Let's this moment
That puts me by your side, go on
With the twilight sky as well
With the gray night sky as well
The days I'm with you
Are engraved in my heart