Fear people like us

Secret War Journal[25 October 2014]
Fear. People had always tried to bring down people they fear.
Fear. It would be our undoing.

Hope of Morning

Secret War Journal[2 October 2014]

I found this song quite meaningful. Enjoy while I am rushing my assignments. :)

My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast
Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
The last mistake, the choice I made
Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
Nowhere to hide inside my mind
I'm scared that you'll compare and I'll look a lifetime past repair
I second guess myself to death, I re-solicit every step
What if my words are meaningless? What if my heart's misleading this?
I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight
When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first,
I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
Like never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental health
Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track
I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves
Trade up made up epidemics, pass around prescription pills
But my disorder can't be cured by a bottle, blade, or dose
Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
But I don't wanna let you see that, I don't want my friends to know
Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight
Try as I might to keep it together
Why is recovery taking forever
Fool the whole world, just until I get better
I'm terrified I'll be faking forever
On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did
All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
All the the secrets silenced by the shame
Don't make me say it [x7]
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight

A decade from now

Secret War Journal[November 2013]
I'll never forget being with you at the end of summer
With our dreams of the future and big hopes
I believe that ten years later in August,
we'll meet again
Such great memories...

We met in a sudden instant at the intersection on the way home
And you called out to me, and said "Let's go home together"
I was so bashful that I hid my face with my bag
But I was so very, very happy

Ah, the fireworks burst in the night sky so nicely, it kinda hurts
Ah, the wind flows by with the time

We had so many happy, fun adventures
Together in our secret base

I'll never forget being with you at the end of summer
With our dreams of the future and big hopes
I believe that ten years later in August, we'll meet again
I knew that, until the end, you were shouting
"Thank you" from the bottom of your heart
Farewell while smiling and holding back tears is so hard
Such great memories...

Ah, summer break will end soon
Ah, I hope the sun and moon make friends

We had so many sad, lonely arguments
Together in our secret base

I knew that, until the end, you were shouting
"Thank you" from the bottom of your heart
Farewell while smiling and holding back tears is so hard
Such great memories...

Nothing can be done about your sudden transfer
I'll write, and call
So don't forget me
Forever, in our secret base

With you at the end of summer, we talked on and on
After the setting sun, we gazed at the stars
I'll never forget the tear that flowed down your cheeks
I won't forget
The way you waved to me until the very end
So let's stay this way in our dreams, forever...

I'll never forget being with you at the end of summer
With our dreams of the future and big hopes
I believe that ten years later in August, we'll meet again
I knew that, until the end, you were shouting
"Thank you" from the bottom of your heart
Farewell while smiling and holding back tears is so hard
Such great memories...

Such great memories...

X-encounter

Secret War Journal[November 2013]
I can't set flight from here
Just looking at your profile won't help
I could lament my powerlessness
But that's not a tactic anyone would recommend

Birds that have forgotten how to fly
Cry their hearts out in regret

There is something I desire
From this cold, inhumane world
But that's not all there is to it
There's a certain hope already welling inside of me

What am I capable of?
I won't find out until I give it a shot
I sprint towards the start line
I'm sure this is how it was meant to be
So I spread my wings and kick off the ground hard
And take off to where you are
Here comes the ravens

Fight! Keep holding on!
We'll come together in the middle of a thousand loops
Right here on this place
My destiny can no longer be stopped
No how little
I can actually do

Whatever you may be burdened with
I hope to be able to share your pain
Until that day, I'll stay by your side
Now's the time to fly, ravens.



Raven by *theDURRRRIAN on deviantART

Magneta Nano

Secret War Journal[October 2013]



Got addicted to this song recently. Enjoy!

Nico Nico Chorus

Secret War Journal[July 2013]
Hey readers! How are you guys doing?

A new chapter of my life just started this Monday. I will be even busier, if that was even possible. While I struggle to write finish my post, allow me to share with you a music interest of mine.

As some of you might know, vocaloids are all the rage in Japan. While I do listen to songs from Hatsune Miku, I enjoy the covers made by a group of people as well. Collectively, we call them the Nico Nico Chorus. This month, I went to check out some of the songs made by these groups of singers. Enjoy!

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"If music be the food of love, play on." - William Shakespeare

Twilight Cover Drive

Secret War Journal[April 2013]
I know this is a very old song but hey, it is very catchy! Enjoy! ^^



Lyrics:
Twilight
I’m loving this twilight
I’m loving this twi-lalalala lalalala twilight

Baby, I’ve known you for a long long time
I never thought that we would find
What we’re holding in our hands
Lately, I’ve been thinking I should make you mine
Been thinking that we should define
What we are, what we are, oh oh

And you know I love to be in control
But recently I don’t know what to do
I’m losing it over you, oh

Ooh la, ooh la
When you say my name
I can feel the flame getting stronger
Oh, let me hear you say
Ooh la, ooh la
We both feel the same
And I can’t play this game any longer

Oh boy
I’m loving this twilight
I’m loving this twilight
I’m loving this twi-lalalala lalalala twilight

Closer
I love it when you lean in close
You touch my heart like you don’t know
And I’ma show you, yeah I’ma show you now

And you know I love to be in control
But recently I don’t know what to do
I’m losing it over you

Ooh la, ooh la
When you say my name
I can feel the flame getting stronger
Oh, let me hear you say
Ooh la, ooh la
We both feel the same
And I can’t play this game any longer

Oh boy
I’m loving this twilight
I’m loving this twilight
I’m loving this twi-lalalala lalalala twilight

Yeah girl, I think about you all of the time
I love your smile and the way that you shine
Wondering how I’m going to make you mine
When it turns to night, I will make it right
So many things I’ve been waiting to say
Held in my heart for a day like today
I wanna hold you till the light fades away
I wanna hold you till the light fades away

Ooh la, ooh la
When you say my name
I can feel the flame getting stronger
Oh, let me hear you say
Ooh la, ooh la
We both feel the same
And I can’t play this game any longer

Oh boy
I’m loving this twilight
I’m loving this twilight
I’m loving this twi-lalalala lalalala twilight
I’m loving this twilight
I’m loving this twilight
I’m loving this twi-lalalala lalalala twilight
Twilight

Nightcore Series

Secret War Journal[March 2013]

Persona by EML

Secret War Journal[9 March 2013]
Do not be deceived by the name. It is actually a concert.

Comprised of mainly electronic music, it was a performance performed by Electronic Music Lab, a club in NUS. Johnston is a member of the club and he would be performing on some of the songs in the concert. Together with Qi Xiang, Marcus and Meldon, we went down to the school's cultural centre dance studio to support Johnston. Below is a audio recording of the concert. Enjoy! :)
(Note: It is a bit soft, so you might need to turn up the volume. :O)

The Stage

I must admit, that not everyone would be able to appreciate such genre of music. Personally, I enjoyed the song that Johnston performed in (51:40). It is similar to trailer instrumental music. I like such styles, it makes you feel alive. It energies you. :)

From Left: Leroy, Qi Xiang, Meldon, Marcus, Johnston

Irony

Secret War Journal[February 2012]
Don’t be so kind to me.
What face should I make?
With the words that have piled up I can’t see
Your face from the side.

Where is it? I can’t find the key I lost.
Sigh…I’m so tired of acting so stubborn when we disagree.

It’s just a little too far for my hand to reach.
I wonder if I truly want to grasp that shadow of yours.

Don’t be so kind to me.
Look, we’ll hurt each other again.
With the lies that have piled up I’m unable to move anymore.
Don’t look at me with those eyes.
What face should I make?
I’m completely lost, but someday
Maybe I’ll be able to smile.

It feels like I’ve spent so many days with you
But still, the words we exchanged were too few.

The distance between you and me is getting just a little closer
I can’t really catch you – even though there’s just a little left to go!

Don’t be so kind to me.
Look, we’ll hurt each other again.
With the lies that have piled up, I can’t hear your words.
Hiding my true voice,
I hum this melody.
I’ll entrust my body
To my slowly changing heart.

I don’t even know myself,
Even though I feel like I want to know about you.
I somewhat hold back these conflicting feelings
And feel my way through these invisible walls

Don’t be so kind to me.
Look, we’ll hurt each other again.
The lies that have piled up are just painful, right?
I want to go see you immediately
But I can't find my words
On at least the final page,
I want to show you my smile!

Oh when I can see you again

Secret War Journal[January 2013]
First MV post for this year! Enjoy! :)

Dancing, still alive

Secret War Journal[27 November 2012]

Brave Blade: Crossing Field, Paradigm

Secret War Journal[19 August 2012]
Before I start on this post, let me wish every muslim selamat Hari Raya Puasa! :)

I always feel that it takes great strength to fast for an entire month. :O

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Back to the post, I am sorry I am posting quite a number of songs here instead of archiving my memories. I really need more time to pen them all down though I would still continue to try despite my lack of time. (I am sacrificing my sleep time for this because these posts are important to me. :)

First up, a song by LiSA, Crossing Field!



My cowardly past that I admitted
Not knowing what's going on, my frightened
past self reflects the reality now

The many skies that are painted here surely
will disturb this ephemeral heart

In my dream I soared
No matter the anxieties my body bears, I'll shake them off
The small sleeping feelings I'll stretch them out
I realized I'm weak and that if you being there

will give me strength in this dark world
This heart that's seeing a long dream, yeah, will last forever

(I wanna always be with you
I'll give you everything I have)

I was looking for the guiding light
If I could touch it, I would remember everything
I'll take the irreplaceable and precious present time

Closing your eyes to the world you know
Is always warm yet painful

Indeed the connecting wishes overlap
The visible hesitation began to move
I want to protect you. The wounds you bear
drifted into a deep sleep

The promise was kept unchanged
Bonds are yeah, what two people clearly believe in

Until my voice reaches you, I'll keep calling your name
I want to feel more the miracle I encountered

In my dream I soared
No matter the anxieties my body bears, I'll shake them off
The small sleeping feelings I'll stretch them out
I realized I'm weak and that if you being there

will give me strength in this dark world
This heart that's seeing a long dream, yeah, will last forever

(I wanna always stay with you
I wanna hold you tight right now
I swear I will walk with you
I'll give you everything I have)

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Next up, a song about blades.

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Smile

Secret War Journal[4 August 2012]
Found this song from my buddy in the army who was playing this song. :)
Enjoy!

Requiem

Secret War Journal[4 August 2012]
I wonder
Will you one day be able to tell me?
Hopefully, with a gentle voice
My soul is a sparkling star
Of drowning tears

A future of nothing bad sadness that finally comes
I through it, forever

I wonder,
Will I ever be able to let go of that hand?
Hopefully with a gentle smile
My soul trembles and shines
My soul is a sparkling star
Of spilling tears

Let's this moment
That puts me by your side, go on
With the twilight sky as well
With the gray night sky as well
The days I'm with you
Are engraved in my heart

I am unbreakable

Secret War Journal[10 June 2012]


Where are the people that accused me?
The ones who beat me down and bruised me
They hide just out of sight, can't face me in the light
They'll return but I'll be stronger

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

Sometimes it's hard to just keep going
But faith is moving without knowing
Can I trust what I can't see to reach my destiny?
I want to take control but I know better

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

Forget the fear it's just a crutch
That tries to hold you back
And turn your dreams to dust
All you need to do is just trust

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

God I want to dream again, take me where I've never been
I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me, nothing can stop me

Release my soul

Secret War Journal[26 March 2012]

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Oh Take a look in the mirror you look so sad
It's so cold like that winter market we used to go
I don't cry anymore but I feel so hurt

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So I don't need you to close to me
You don't hear me so you said
I don't know why thing have changed since yesterday

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This could be love again
All I need is you
Come back, I'm waiting, anytime
The heavy rains come
Still I miss days with you
I can't look into your face
Oh feeling blue and looking back again
Please come back to me

Repeat * ** ***

To stay with you always
You're the world to me, and dream on
Take my sword again for you
How do you feel, so fine
You're the world to me, and dream on
You stole my heart so long ago
Oh I release my soul
So you feel my song

Jpop and Anime Songs

Secret War Journal[January - February 2012]
It has been some time since I posted MVs on my Journal. I guess it is time!

Recently, youtube has been crafting playlists out for me when I'm listening to music while working. In case you did not know there such a feature, go Browse -> Music -> Play Mix. :)

Unsurprisingly, my playlists were composed mainly of instrumentals, OSTs, jpop and anime songs. I am not really sure why but I guess I frequently listen to the songs there. :p

Here are some of my favourites in the playlists (not including instrumentals):

ARiA, Miku Craze

Secret War Journal[6 August 2011]


Going to start rambling about Hatsune Miku! Those who have no interest in her, feel free to go to other posts! :)

Recently, found this sorta old song sung by her. It's ARiA by Headphone Tokyo. I feel that the lyrics is very meaningful. Listen to the song above!

There is speculation that this song is a sequel to SPiCa, which was also composed by Headphone Tokyo.


As some of you might already be aware, Hatsune Miku has been conducting concert in Japan and soon USA!

In this video, she really looks very lively, compared to some of her other songs performed, in my opinion.


Here are some other Hatsune Miku Videos!

In this song using Hatsune Miku's Dark voice, it really sounds very human!


The Czar shared this, weird song but very catchy!!!

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"If the King loves music, it is well with the land." ~Mencius

Secret Base and Summer Anime

Secret War Journal[16 July 2011]
I had been really busy lately, hardly unexpected with my National Examinations nearing. Thus, I apologise for the abrupt short posts recently here. (I would try to keep short posts only on my mobile blog but sometimes I can't help it). This post would also be a relatively short post because I am still working on another post. That would be long, I assure you. (It is taking a long time to type all of them out, hahas!)

Anyways, Summer Animes started airing last week and I only got the time to check out some of the anime series aired this season only recently.

This song was the highest rated song among anime-watchers when I checked the last time. The lyrics are rather touching. Enjoy!

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So far, I decided to watch only about 1 or 2 anime shows this season. Mainly due to my busy schedule recently and partly due to not many of them catches my eye. Hahas.

One of them would be Itsuka Tenma no Kuro Usagi. You could try watching them as well, it seems promising thus far. The plot revolves around the main character and a vampire. :)

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Another anime that seems one of the most promising so far, in terms of art, would be Dantalian no Shoka. Here is its PV!